kinda tipsy

and dakshy stays over after all.

stay-over was fun because...
1. i was helping my cousin pack (i love packing!!)
2. i got to watch my MU - birmingham (and MU won baby!)
3. food wasnt forced down my throat

so, yea. stay-over was fun.

today - dakshy's got MEGA plans. which is to STUDY and then study and then study and then... well, you now the rest. today's subject - chemistry! so i dont think my schedule is gonna be that hard to follow.

lately, i've been somehow doing a lot of thinking and wondering. for instance, times when there happens to be study breaks (most of the time when i'm lazy *smiles*), i end up day dreaming, thinking and wondering and also at times, i fantasize.

anyhow, during this period of time, i have been thinking a lot about life after school. since this is like my last year in school, and there are only a few months away from school's end, i really beginning to wonder.

after this...
~ teachers who you know so well wont be teaching you
~ there wont be the need to wear uniforms
~there'll be very few restrictions when it comes to your appearance
~ you wont be taking the same roads which head to your school
~ you wont be seeing your friends on a daily basis
~ your weekly allowances from parents will become monthly allowances in which you'll have to manage them WELL
~ you'll be exposed to the OUTSIDE world where survival skills are bloody essential
~ social problems will enter a whole new level
~ you wouldnt know which part of the world you're gonna be in

fuck! i can go on and on!

anyhow, the conclusion would be that things are really gonna take a turn. a freaking 90` turn!
we can be babies and not want to move on OR we can be grown-ups and take the challenge to adapt to new surroundings.

this is when i feel like saying,
" i dont wanna go anywhere or do anything! i just wanna stay here and enjoy my life with my friends forever and ever! you cant make me leave this life i have! YOU CANT!!"

but, of course if i decide to do so, the results would be..
" dakshy! you're gonna get your ass whipped!" mom says.

so, yea. i guess dakshy's gotta be a grown-up and behave like one. it's gonna be really tough, but let's just see how things go.

i'm a little tipsy. talking crap. so, dont bother that much.

moving on. i have finally decided what i'm gonna wear from the dumb graduation my school's gonna have. i'm gonna be wearing a baju kebaya. as much as i hate the sight of it, mom (who's fashion sense ROCKS) said that i'll look really nice and elegant. so, i guess baju kebaya it is.
will be getting one today most probably. see la how.

note to all - dakshy has been kinda different of late. i know. please adjust to her as she promises to be back to normal sometime soon.

till then,

click!

~ testing my patience ~

stay over

There is no excuse for being bored today, what with all the fun ideas and invitations being tossed your way. If you're not feeling in the mood to be social, then it would be in your best interest to fake it -- sometimes, pretending you'd love to hang out with other people will help wake up your legitimate desire to be social. Spending time by yourself is valuable, but sometimes it can border on being self-indulgent. Share yourself with the people in your life -- they miss you a lot!

this was exactly what my horoscope had to say today.
the best part was that i read my horoscope just as i was contemplating whether or not i should stay over in my cousin's place as she's leaving to india on sunday morning.
actually, my cousin, prabani, who'll be leaving to india on sunday morning, wanted my sista to stay over in her place so that they could hang out before she leaves. she wanted me to stay over too. but since i skipped my late-night study on thursday night, i had to replace it tonight. so, i thought of not staying after all. then, when she came over to my house this morning, she told me that she wanted me to stay over. so, yea. i guess i've gotta stay over after all.
damn. skipping is bad. and post-poning is bad-DER.

next. we celebrated mom's birthday on the 27th night!
plans were changed after all. my sista's boyfriend (who my parents dont know that well and not to mention, dont WANT to know) organized the birthday dinner for my mom. but, finally, i should say that things went well! mom and dad actually spoke to him for a while, and i could sense the spark showing that they are beginning to like him just a liiiiiiitle. anyhow, hope things go well for my sista and him.

moving on. tuition yesterday with mr.tan. tuition yesterday was great though i was forcing to keep my eyes open as we were learning about bloody-boring-LOGIC GATES, which by the way, is not logic one bit.
but, since it was physics, it did get into my head after all.
all's good if it's physics and not biology
that's dakshy's motto.

today, dakshy's got maths tuition with santha at 1.30pm and veena class in bangsar at 4.00pm.

gotta go now. havent finished homework yet.

click!

~ turning red?! ~

what a day?!

today started simply wonderfully until i got out of the car at the school entrance. actually, what happened was that when i got out of the car, i think something-something happened to my hip. and that something-something caused mega havoc! i couldnt walk, sit, stretch, nothing! so freaking annoying wei. haiyo.
you tell me la. isnt this a sign that i shouldnt have gone to school?

if i had taken that sign seriously, then i wouldnt have had to sit for 4 fucking gerak gempurs right? haiyo. not just that. we were assigned to sit in the freaking LAB! first of all, do you know how annoyingly stupid the tables and chairs are placed in the lab?
well, if you dont, the explanation is below.
the tables are simply too low and the chairs are simply too high!
can you imagine the condition of your thighs by the time school is over uh? they'll practically have 2 superbly long lines across them la!
plus, i've got a sickening ache on my hip.
it was....... ish!

next, came recess.
mei kay brought mooncake again! yay!! i just love mooncakes man. and the look on her face when she eats them. haha. dont call me a lesbo la but she's really really cute when she munches them down.
oh damn. i dunno what's wrong with me now la.

anyhow, after recess, awesome, catherine and dakshy went over to siewie's class to lepak for a while.
aaaaaaah..
memories la. 4 intan days were simply unforgettable. we really really enjoyed being in one class and not sneaking out every single time just to see each other. now, it's just so fucking hard to leave our classes and meet up somewhere during school, though there are no teachers in any of our classes.

yeap. and that's our award-winning chorus speaking. conducted by dakshy! man. it was fantastic la. oh yes. and that was the year 4 intan broke the tradition of akik winning every year! we dumped them way into the ground ! aaaha!

those were the days. now, it's just so hard to meet up and spend much time together. its all about studying, studying, studying. what the fuck la. actually right, we dont wanna be like the book muggers you know. but our school la. haiyo. especially the stupid headmistress of mine. may she rot in hell for all the nonsense she's doing.

anyhow, where was i? oh yes. after recess. so, yea. after a while of our reunion, akikians (sounds dumb. i know) had to dash back to our class as our teacher was looking for us. so, dash we did.

in class, after the 4th and final gerak gempur, mei kay and i were chatting. and then, suddenly out of the blues, she says,

"dak. you look exactly like someone la."

"who??"

"aiya.. like that raven girl."

"raven who??"

"like that "that's so raven" girl la dak."

oh.my.god. you know what's the best part? many people have actually told me that! why la? why?? it seems that i shake my head a lot when i talk, exactly like her. and my enthusiasm imitates her at times. and even the tone of my voice. hmmm. that's something to think about isnt it?

to make things easier, i shall have a vote. those who agree to this, please let me know.

moving on. after school, dakshy with sista, went over to a florist to get mom some flowers as her birthday is tomoro. and plans for mom's birthday would be dessert in bukit bintang tonight. presentees would be dakshy's family, yoga and maybe shamita's family.

okay then. dakshy's gotta go get mom's birthday card done.

oh yea. and to people out there who've got nothing much to do, go get your personality test done check out some thingies. http://www.kisa.ca/personality/results.php

mine said :

Extroverted (E) 54%
Introverted (I) 46%
Intuitive (N) 55%
Sensing (S) 45%
Feeling (F) 75%
Thinking (T) 25%
Perceiving (P) 64%
Judging (J) 36%

click!

~ confession ~

dinners

dakshy lost her mood last night. well, not exactly last night, but yesterday evening. something happened, in which i cant state, that made me lose my mood and therefore made me sit in my room and cry for a very very very long time.

anyhow, usually, when you cry a lot, the next thing you'd wanna do is sleep right?? well, i did just that until my dad came to wake me up to have dinner. it was 9 something. i memang no mood, just let me sleep la rite? but NO. he doesnt wanna let me sleep.

he knocks on my door for the 3rd time and this time demanding me to open the door. so, dakshy, with absolutely no choice, opens the door in a horrible condition.
horrible condition - hair all over the place, eyes red and swollen from crying, face sulking, lips dry from the blasting ac.
so, dad sees me and totally avoids the fact that i look bad shape and tells me that i HAVE TO go down for dinner now. so, i say that ' i dont wanna' over and over again.

dad finally asks me,
'' what's happening dakshy?? why you got no mood now??"
" nothing dad. i'm just... nothing la.. i wanna sleep"
" why you got no mood? did somebody say something to you? are you hurt?"
" i.... no... nothing.. i'm just... nothing la.. nothing..."
" why are you crying?? tell me la. you know i always tell you that i solution can never be found until you speak up."
" i know..."
" it's okay. you dont have to tell me anything till you want to do so. just come down and eat first. shamita's family is downstairs. come."
" i really dont want to."
" come."

so, i leave my room to get downstairs. i have dinner and dash back up to my room and sleep (cry).
finally!

next morning.
sista calls me hp and 8.45 to let me know about the dinner my aunt is having in her house for a get-together because her daughter is leaving the country. sista tells me about the transportation plan and all.
dakshy decides not to go.

which means that tonight, for the dinner, everybody from my family will be there except dakshy.
fantastic. simply fantastic.

click!

~ deceived ~

tuition with siewie

today.. after a very very long time, siewie and dakshy went out alone. oh wait. i think we've never been out alone. anyways, moving on. siewie came 30mins late. cant blame her also la kan? because i was hogging her on the phone like every 10mins asking her where was she and why she wasnt in popular (our meeting place yet).

so, while sitting in the car with my sista, who obliged to sending me for tuition today, topic of conversation was about child rape based on nurin's case. sista and i were expressing ourselves mega-ly until one point, we started suggesting ways GOD or police (if they happen to be a liiiiiiiiiiiiittle useful) can torture the motherfuckers involved.
the following list hanya sesuai dibaca oleh those above 18.

dakshy's suggestions:
1. stuff nails up their assholes
2. slice their penis agonisingly slowly
3. cane their asses so hard that they wont be able to sit till the end of their lives
4. heat up their balls till it reaches the boiling point (100`C)

sista's suggestions:
1. chop their penis into quarters
2. shove ice cubes into their assholes

winning suggestion:
chop their legs and hands off. and then slice it into small pieces. and then throw those pieces into a wok which has oil in it and fry it. while it is being fried, make sure they watch it being fried. and then, finally, 'cook' them in the wok in boiling oil.
kencang or not?
at this point, i could gladly say that my sista has one hell of a sense of imagination!

so, after sharing our ideas on the punishment and stuff, i called up siewie for the millionth time.
she's already in popular!
so, i dash outta the car and arrive at popular.

we then head to McD for lunch. lunch was GOOD. through out lunch, we discuss about our pathetic-beyond-imagination lives. the convo also included...
1. graduation robes/ costume
2. McSexy leaving chelsea
3. sirius
4. life after SPM
5. bitches in school
6. teachers
7. gerak gempurs
8. SPM itself
9. future lecturer a.k.a dakshy teaching *ahem*
10. voldermort

so, yea. after lunch, we headed back to kasturi. cop-ped place to sit and then off we went down 3 floors to popular to waste another 30 mins.

in popular, siewie picked up a children's book and started reading it ALOUD. children's book la! haiyo. aku, yang tak boleh tahan, scurried to my feet to the cookery section and picked up some of my favourite books and came back to 'the spot'. then, the 2 of us were looking at the enticing food display in the books that literally made our mouth water. after a few mins, i picked one of the books to accumulate in my sista's birthday gift package.
elaboration:
every year, without fail, i get my sista something for her birthday. this year, i thought of getting her a whole lot of her favourite things and pack it up and give it to her. therefore, i dont have to crack my head to get her something specific. chun-ted idea man.

anyhow, paid for book and off we went up those 3floors again with the aid of mankind's ingenious creation - the lift.

up in class, the place we earlier cop-ped turned out to be in BETWEEN a threesome who wanna talk to each other A LOT before class.
this is when i should confess that i'm the one who suggested not to occupy the sides and occupy the middle of the row instead. hehe. should have listened to siewie. damn la! *sheepish smile*
so, we sit down and start talking to each other.
then, these people start conversing across my face. i get a little annoyed initially and then gently ask the other girl if she wanted to switch places with me so that she can sit next to her buddies and stop using my as a mediator. but NO. she says it's ok.

minutes later, they continue talking! fuck la! i got damn pissed. BUT thanks to my distraction (siewie) i didnt express myself.

after tuition, it was hallelujah once again.
siewie left first and then my mom came and i left too.

now, i'm safe and sound with the presence of my computer and ever faithful stereo set that is blasting into my ears.

plans for tonight would be shamita's family coming over to my place for dinner as grandma and dakshy are about to dish up something happening.
yes people. dakshy CAN cook.

remember, when REMY can cook, why cant dakshy??

ps: it rhymes!!

click!

~ hurt ~

gerak gempur

my gerak gempur is going on right now. damn it! i HATE gerak gempurs.
why?? well, because...

• it's pointless
• it takes a hell lot of time
• it doses me with the effect of sleeping pills
• it results in me collecting the answer sheets from all students
• i've gotta actually stay awake during chemistry and biology
• it's so fucking easy!
• it consumes energy
• it takes away my day-dreaming time which i spend during science subject periods

so, yea. now you tell me. dont you hate gerak gempurs?!

moving on.

have you seen the recent rape cases in which children are involved?? haiyoooooooooo! i really cant take it la. as much as i dont wanna talk about it in my blog after all places, i really cant stop myself.

how can these motherfuckers actually have the urge to rape and brutally murder children la?!

CHILDREN, for Christ's sake!

and the recent Nurin case. fuck la. they actually inserted brinjals and cucumber into her vagina?! what the fuck are these motherfuckers' problem la? where's all the moral values and the love towards human beings? do you see animals doing this to their kind? reading the newspapers nowadays really makes me sick to the pit of my stomach la.

and the other child by the name of Ang. a long piece of wood with nails on it, was forced into her vagina. doesnt your face immediately put on a disgusting look?! can you imagine the pain the kid would have gone through? what the fuck is all this?! do you mean to say that these motherfucking bastards get satisfaction from doing things like this?!

if so, then come over to my place. i'll stick a freaking cempedak into your asshole and let's see if that satisfies me.

i cant believe that despite saying so much, i'm still not contended with expressing myself. i simply cant believe that these people are even human! can you imagine how the parents will feel when they see their child in this condition? after raising them up with all the love they can provide? can you imagine the way their hearts will break and tear apart?!

and one more favourite sex crime in Malaysia - incest

grandfather raping grandchild. brother raping sister. dad raping daughter. haiyo!

why la? WHY?!

do you mean to say that you'll go for simply anyone to satisfy your sexual urges?! even if it is completely morally wrong?! all this just for satisfaction?

these people, despite knowing that if they get caught, they'll be sentenced to jail for a painful period of time in which they'll get their ass literally whipped till they wont be able to sit for months, still continue to do these disgusting acts within the community.

why do they actually do it?

• because they just 'feel like it'?
• for revenge?
• bored?
• to try something new?
• to 'spice up' their boring life?

i dunno la. whatever they do it for, it's just plain sadistic.

all i can say is that, if GOD really is up there, watching this, he should give them an 'experience of their lives' once they're sent to rot in hell. torture them in ways totally unimaginable.

i really dunno why am i so emo now. but i really cant take it.

oh yea. and what role does pendidikan moral play at this point uh?? the stupid nilai-s and definisi-s? do those people follow the fucking nilai-s?

i really want the ministry of education to think about things like this and replace fucking moral with self-defence and survival-skills classes.

"open your eyes and see what's going on around you and stop dreaming of living in a fantasy world where harmony is everywhere, hishamuddin!"

click!

~ paranoid ~

murinho!

but why?! WHY ARE YOU LEAVING MOURINHO?!

why does mourinho have to leave?
do you know how football is gonna be after he's gone?!
what's terry's reaction towards this?
how is chelsea gonna sustain without McSexy (mourinho) ??
where is he gonna be while games are going on without him?!
what would his reaction be when chealsea loses after this?
why the fuck does he have to leave?!

tonight is gonna be the first game in a very long time in which manchester united and chelsea are gonna play in the absence of McSexy. damn la! as much as i hate chelsea, i LOVE McSEXY! what would football be without him?!

it's gonna be so freaking boring to watch a match in which chelsea plays without seeing murinho's expression change from time to time! he's so freaking sexy when he stares and observes the players. and so freaking sexy when he punches the air when dumb chelsea scores. so freaking sexy when he smirks whenever MU scores.
*dreamy sigh*

i'm so gonna miss you la!
anyhow, i think i should stop drooling on a 52-year-old.

moving on.
i didnt go for ratatouille you know! sigh. damn sad you know. there were some complications. :(
damn la. i think i've gotta wait till spm's over.

tuition today with maths teacher - santha

tuition today was a little less than disastrous. after a very long time. you know why? well, in between of tuition, my mom and dad decided to "invade" our class. GREAT! the conversation between santha and dad was mostly about santha buying a new house and the loan process and stuff. since my dad is a banker.

usually, during conversations as such i will get up and deliberately leave. BUT, since this convo was going on while i was having tuition, leaving wasnt exactly an option. so, sitting there during the boring conversation and the watchful eyes of santha on the book i was doing, i was stopping myself numerous times from yawning.

but, despite the "distraction", dakshy still managed to score 40/40 for the paper 1 i was doing.
hell yea!

after tuition, which ended at 3 something, he left.
HALLELUJAH!

dakshy stretches and relaxes before she gets back to doing her biology notes and studying biology even more.
fucketty fuck!

when la? when the hell is SPM gonna be OVER?!

oh yea. before i forget.
note to MANCHESTER UNITED -

• carlos teves! could you score just ONE goal for all the money MU spent on you?!
• nani. fantastic job. just keep reminding yourself that MU wears the red jersey and not the blue and stop passing the ball to the opposite team.
• ronaldo. get the freaking ball!
• rooney. welcome back!

gotta go.

click!

~ you SIRIUS?! ~

ish!

oh my freaking shit! tuition!

these were the first words that came outta my mouth this morning, when i stared at my hp screen and saw the time it displayed. 10.30am! fuckaccino!

i was scheduled to have tuition at 12pm today. and for that to happen, dakshy has to wake up at 9.30am! why? well, i've gotta wake up, take my super long shower, get to my mom's shop with my mom (leaves home at 10.30) and head for tuition on the lrt.

and now, it was freaking 10.30am! so, yea. i had to dash outta the bed and throw myself into the shower. not just that. i also had to blow my drenching wet hair and not let it dry by itself to avoid looking like dianna ross. so,
blowdry hair - check.
tuition stuff - check

"dakshy!!!!!!!!! what are you doing?! it's already 11! get your freaking ass downstairs NOW!!"
"coming ma!"

handbag - check
handphone - check

"dakshy!! i dont see you down stars yet!!"
"coming ma!"

oil hair - check
matching accessories - check
towel dried - check

"DAKSHY! i'm gonna leave NOW!"
"wait ma. i'm coming!"

pencil box - check
wallet - check

"i'm cummmmming!!!!" (dont think wrong)

and i threw myself into the car, hitting my head on the inside of the car, with a painful shriek ish!

anyhow, after the relatively painful drive to my mom's shop, i dash once again to kl sentral to head to tuition.

reaching the platform as the train's doors are about to close, to get brutally hit by the doors of the train as it hits me and then opens up or the rest. ish!

in tuition, i end up sitting next to hooligans. well, that's kinda mean of me to call them hooligans, but you should realise that this is coming from a girl who was put to wait for the stupid counter lady to slow-motion-ly write the freaking receipt for fucking 10minutes! ish! anyhow, sitting next to them was like sitting next to aliens wei. really. well, not exactly aliens, but they looked at me as though i was an alien. they were staring at me everytime mr.daiva said something, what the fuck?!
i know i'm pretty. but dont la stare at me like that! freaking me out you know.

the best part of tuition would be mr.daiva asking me 3 questions today! ish! possible reasons as to why he chose me 3 times today, would most probably be because...
(a) i was wearing a striking green top
(b) i was sitting next to people who looked as though they cant even spell 'sejarah'
(c) i was looking so freaking uncomfortable as i was sitting next to hooligans
(d) i was looking simply pretty *smiles*

anyway, note to all - dakshy girl answered all his questions happeningly!
go dakshy,
it's your birthday,
we gonna party like it's your birthday,
we gonna sip bacardi like it's your birthday,
and we dont give a fuck though it's not your birthday!

anyhow, after reaching my mom's shop after tuition, i get a call from my music teacher who informs me that my class has been cancelled for the day. damn la! i so wanted to go you know. ish!

tonight, my family's going for a prayers for laetishya in kajang. dakshy going??
nopetty nope nope!
why??
well, because......
my siewie knows why.
hehe.

tomoro - dakshy and siewie going for ratatouille! yes yes yes! really looking forward to it.
and MANCHESTER UNITED vs. CHELSEA! the game of the year! nerve cracking man.

okie then. i gotta go. must go book tickets for movie and head back home.

click!

~ like being stalked ~

oooooo la la!

actually, the topic and the content of the blog has got absolutely NO connection with each other. but, anyhow, let's continue.

today was so freaking BORING in school! oh lord. another day of school in which i really questioned myself over and over and over again, as to WHY DID I GO TO SCHOOL?!!!

well, actually, my darling siewie was SUPPOSED to come to school. but, dunno why. she didnt come ultimately. so, yea. that should explain why school was so freaking boring.

started off my day by beratur-ing in the bola tampar court. there, after the national anthem and the superbly retarded morning exercise - wait. i shall skip and move on to recess as nothing much happened anyways.

recess - the jolly part of everyday school life. the flocking of people to the wantan mee stall, the ambush of the drink stall, the cop-ing of tables by early birds and not to forget, the enticing, mouth watering smell of FOOD. well, though food doesnt entice me much, the smell of it definitely does.

mei kay appears in the canteen and sits with me on our regular table. 2 empty spaces next to us, which were supposed to be for siewie and awesome, who were both absent. sigh. anyhow, after dashing to get food and stuffing down my throat due to insufficient time (why the hell doesnt the school give us more than 20mins anyways? like la the students of smkpp will become obese if you increase recess time rite?! wtf!)

after main course came dessert. dessert today (more like for the next few weeks) was MOONCAKE! dakshy loves mooncake, mooncake loves dakshy. *smiles* haha! cant help myself la. i simply love mooncake. obsession, you can call it. lol. anyhow, we indulged the mouth watering, crispy brown layered, sweeeeet paste-d, soft and great smelling mooncake.

then, the damned good-for-nothing bell rings and causes sumeshie (pengawas kantin) to escort us out of the canteen. : ( that was SO not fun. the worst part was that the mooncake wasnt finished yet! so, the last few pieces had to be gobbled down. you could've expected the glorious taste to be less significant after all.
oh god. i'm tearing! haha. dramatic wei.
i really wonder why am i so dramatic today. lol.

to siewie:
you didnt come to school! haiyo.. school was so freaking boring you know! plus, i havent seen you in TWO whole weeks! this is like the longest period of time in which i havent seen you la!

reminds me of form 3 days. haha.

yeah and we took the editorial board photos today. at the so-called bird park. jie lee was my only source of companion man. thank the lord that she's in the language department man.

to catherine:
better colour rite? hehe. thank you. thank you. finally. problem solved. lol.

that's it for now. i gotta go for my physics chemistry tuition.

click!

~ flirtatious beyond control ~

lazzzzzzzzzzzzzing..

again. dakshy's at home. hehe. cant help it la. simply love being at the comfort of my home-sweet-home. lol.

to siewie:

just read your blog.
i know how annoying it is for people in school to keep asking you about why you arent coming to school. fuck la! why do they give a shit anyways? like la they are gonna come over to your house and take care of you if you tell them that you're not feeling well, and that's why you've been absent. fucking pissing off i tell you.

worst would be the part where the teachers ask you also. you cant walk away from them without answering some more you know. you just have to stand there like a smiling goat and answer all their freaking questions till they're satisfied before you can dash away.
fuck the world and teachers who are in it!

and i have changed the colour of my shoutbox. better or worst? let me know. i shall amend. lol.

so, you feeling better now siewie? read your blog the other day. you seemed really distressed. but, not to worry. feelings are mutual. i'm in distress too. because of you-know-who and you-know-why. so, yea. we're rowing on the same boat. (figuratively)

and ratatouille? on? really cant wait to watch with you la. really. looking forward to 'enjoying' it with someone of MY kind.

to awesome wong :

i know how sad it is that you cant exactly curse on my shoutbox. sorry la. i also damn pissed.
and i read your blog.

school schmool? really? what sort of a tajuk is that la?

now, back to my daily life for today.

the cling clang clong clang clang went on today. fuck! couldnt take it la. i think the renovation people make sure they do their thing in my house everytime i decide not to go to school. what the fuck?! dont they know that dakshyani the great is sleeping?! it's not like i've been sleeping since 10pm the last night that i cant wake up to their noise and start my day at freaking 8am rite?! aaaaaaaaaaargh! let the poor girl sleep la from time to time.

oh yea and graduation day has been confirmed. it's on the 24th of oct. i have actually decided what i wanna wear. i thought of wearing a saree and looking kinda indian-ny and poise. BUT, i think my dumbshit school will have to say something about that. when i told pn.rohana about that, she said...

i dont think you can wear a saree la. can see your arms rite?
of course la teacher can see my arms. i dont think people wear sarees with long sleeves. (sarcasm)
hmm.. but do you think you can wear a closed shoe with that?
teacher! closed shoe? you kidding me uh? i'll look like a loony!
but, that's one of the dress codes.
teacher, when the malays can wear baju kurung, why cant the indians wear sarees?
i dunno la! (giving up) you ask pn.lim only la.
rite. (shaking head in disbelieve to her stupidity and the school's stupidity too)

i think i should just go in my pjs like what siewie said la. seriously. i dont think anything else would go with the dresscode after all. pjs would be really perfecto.

you know something? if there were something called 'stupid avenue', pn.roaini, on the behalf of the school will just drive pass it and prove to the world that she's just beyond stupid.
i have officially realised that i study in a motherfucking-beyond-stupid school.
fantastico!

gotta click now. have work and revision to do for my dumbass gerak gempur that's coming up.

click!

~ missing you!!! ~

exhaustion!!

i'm so freaking exhausted so much so my limbs are failing to function as one. they're not even listening to the interpretation given by my brains. that explains why i'm taking so fucking long to type a single sentence without having to 'backspace' so many times.

anyhow, moving on to the happenings of today...

surprisingly went to school - only to pass up a doc to yin ling for the editorial board thingy. haiyo. i actually thought that being in the language department would mean that i'll get to write essays and display my work in the school magazine. but NO. all i've been doing is writing reports and not any of the fun stuff. and the 'best' part would be the reports have to be written in BM!
'you kidding me uh?!' i first asked yin ling.
she answered saying, 'nope'.
and since then, dakshy has been writing reports in BM for the fucking school magazine.
sigh.

next,the day went smoothly, mainly because we didnt have sejarah by pn.anbarasi. praise mother of Jesus! the day went fantastically without her super slow speech and nagging useless advises.

right after recess, i went down to the teachers' room and passed the parcels of sinfully-sweet smelling brownies to selective teachers.
reactions??
pn.noriyah - dakshyani! kamu bake sendiri ke? wahh... terima kasih...
pn.norizah - thank you dakshini.. buat sendiri ke?
pn.siti perwati - wah.. dakshyani buat memang sedap.. terima kasih ya..
datin hasna - oh my god... dakshyani.. thank you so much..
pn.hasnita - oooh... dakshyani.. i'm so touched!

hehe. nice to hear such comments from very few nice teachers in my school. anyhow, when it came to pn.hasnita, pn.rohana who sits next to her was like, 'you never do for me huh?'
i was SO taken aback. what the hell la? you happen to be a bitch who doesnt like giving marks whereas she LIKES giving marks. so, she gets the brownies and you DONT. isnt it simple to understand? the best part would be that, she continued it in the class too. she went like, "so, dakshyani, you like her better than me la?" WTF?!
i resolved to - ignorance is bliss.

after school, i was scheduled to teach sumeshie and stella chemistry. so, waited in canteen till they came and then went over to 4intan to teach the two of them. started at 1.30 and finished at 4. fuck! i was tired. i never knew teaching intently would take up so much of energy! but, somehow i feel really good teaching. which exlpains why i really wanna lecture in the future. i shall not proceed with what all i wanna say after that, as anger might take over.

finished teaching session and headed home. reached home and slept.

now, blogging while listening to colonial cousins. hmmmmmmmm...

i shall 'click' before i fall asleep once again on the keyboard.

click!

~ cant-live-without after all ~

brownies anyone??

akka! we dont even have chocolate in the first place!!!

right after jolting out of the bed at 11am, because of the clang cling clong clang clang from the renovation in the balcony which is connected to my room, i growled. literally growled.

i growled because i didnt get sleep at all last, because of something i cant state. anyhow, due to so, the clang cling clong clang clang made me catch breakfast right on time. after breakfast, sis and i wanted to bake. actually, i wanted to bake la. i actually wanted to give some of my malay teachers some brownies and stuff since it's the puasa month and it happens to be my last year in school.

so, after bathing and stuff, my sis and i step into the kitchen and open the cupboard to have a look at our supplies for the brownies. and we "surprisingly" see NO chocolate. fantastic. an essential to the brownie was not there. so, we had to take a drive all the way to puchong to get chocolate and some other supplies and finally started baking at 2pm.

now, i'm on the third floor. blogging while smelling the sweet smell of the brownies which have travelled all the way from the 1st floor to the 3rd. heaven baby! heaven!

after this, most probably, i might be heading to my cousin's place, as her sis-in-law has just given birth to a baby girl, named leatishya. (pronounced as latisha, which means 'graceful' in Latin)

i guess that's it for now. i gotta ciao and check on my perfectly chocolate american brownie that's sizzling away in my oven.

click!

~ worried sick ~

ratatouille

i watched ratatouille last night!!!! it was so freaking cute! i've actually been trying to watch this movie so many many times but somehow didnt get the chance to do so. but, finally, i watched it last night! yes!

presentees for movie were - sis, shamita, dakshy, yoga, 2 aunts, prabani.

although i found remy really really cute, my sis, prabani and shamita didnt. they were in fact 'disgusted'. i couldnt be least bothered. i was so into the movie and the animation which made the rat look so freaking real and the things it did. and the fact that it did what it liked at the end if the day without thinking about what the dad and the colony would think. that somehow made me think a little and also hit me hard at the pit of my stomach. damn.

i still enjoyed the movie though my cousin was clenching into my arm on my right. :)
after movie, we were supposed to go to leka-leka to indulge in some ice-cream, but plan didnt work out. because yoga had to get back home asap as he had to travel to lumut (so freaking far away from kl) the next day for a work-relating thingy.

i think i'm gonna watch the movie again with my siewie - if possible. she should be the perfect person to watch it with, as she wont get 'disgusted' and scar my hand in the process of clenching it.

now, i'm sitting at home (didnt go to school), blogging. wonderful.

i've got my add maths tuition today with me wonderful mr.balan. he happens to be 'wonderful' now, because he's not sarcastic anymore!!! yes!! he's so freaking nice to me and teaches me without raising his voice, banging the table, using sarcasm to get pass every point he teaches and question me formulas all the time. hallelujah baby!

after tuition (8pm), prabani, mira, shamita, dakshy and sis are going out. some sort of a girls' night out. most probably to leka-leka or chillis. not sure yet. all i know is that they are definitely gonna stuff me with food as i look too 'fragile' and look as though i am in desperate need of food. *cis cis*

anyhow, really looking forward to the night out. oh yea. before i forget, just wanted to inform....

ma clicks - dakshy wont be coming to school tomoro because its tuesday and also because dakshy might be staying over in cousin's place.

that's it for now.

click!

~ absence makes the heart grow fonder ~

still dreaming

"sleep dakshy!!! sleep!!!"

despite all the super tiring activities that took place yesterday, can you believe that i couldnt sleep at all last night?? couldnt sleep at all! fuck man! my body was aching as thought mohammed ali had punched me all over, mistaking me for the punching-thingy boxers use (dunno what is it called). lol. me eyes were burning before i hit the bed, in desperate need to sleep. but, as soon as i hit the bed, it doesnt close. what the fuck la!
could you just gimme ONE sign?! sleep or no sleep?!! hmmmmph!

moving on. since i couldnt sleep and it was still really early, i decided to something a little productive. which was, FANTASIZE! lol.
i was actually asked by me mr.tan, my tuition teacher, the other day whether do all girls fantasise about things. and me answer?
OF COURSE WE DO!
have you ever seen or heard of a girl who doesnt fantasise? if you have, either
(a) it should be a transsexual
(b) it should be a mother of 4, who forgets to do her own shopping from time to time.

anyhow, ever wondered where do fairy tales come from?
answer: women who fantasise.
no joke la. most fairy tales are written by women who were girls who fantasise just like us.

things girls fantasise about? or at dakshy fantasises about.

• how prince charming looks
• when prince charming comes
• the way prince charming carries you away from the chaos of your life and takes you somewhere special
• the way the others envy you when they see you with your prince charming
• the dream wedding of you and prince charming
• the dream vacations and honeymoons
• the fantastic lifestyle of the super rich
• scenes of life which includes one hot guy and you romancing
• the need of doing nothing productive and still being at top-notch
• the feeling to shop till you drop without worrying of the cash that is in stake
• THE dream house

man! i can go on and on!

but, what do i say la? i am an ordinary girl who spends a whole lotta time fantasising. so, you cant blame me, can you?

quote : goals are born from one's dreams.

so, start dreaming. or in my case, fantasise. lol.

click!

~ flirtatious ~