9 down, 1 to go!!

9 down, 1 to go - courtesy of awesome

oh my god! it's really one more subject more for crap-shit-good-for-nothing-bitch-pain-in-the-ass-mother-fuckin-SPM to be over. just ONE MORE!!

a little exaggeration:

just 2 days. after that, i'll be floating in freedom blown by the november 26th's wind. i'll be breathing in the sweet scent of relaxation given by the rustling of paper when biology 3 paper is collected by the invigilator. i'll be walking on the path leading to heaven tarred by the celebration confetti. i'll be opening my eyes to the new realm of peace designed by the jumping and rejoicing form fives. i'll be listening to the soothing lullaby sung by the screaming science stream students....mmmmmm....

wah. call me Shakespeare's daughter wei. haha.

end of moral for life

moral is officially over! O.V.E.R. i tell you! haiyo.. i cant express the way i feel right now. i think i just need more than words to let you all know how G.O.O.D i feel right now. there's NO MORE memorising nilais, definisis, kandungan akedemiks, NOTHING!! reading all these, you should have just a gist of how good i feel. but, try being me wei. you'll be floating on cloud nine already.

right now - i'm feel weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

biology - the mother of all disaster that is to strike

oh fuck the world! do they really have to keep the "best" for the last?! why the hell la? can't bio be the first science subject so that we can get it over with?! why the hell does the ministry of education have this much of anger upon us?! ish. so, i guess for the next 2 days or so, cells, plants, blood, heart, animals, ATP, experiments, nutrients and gases are gonna jam pack my brains.

just 2 more days. just 2 more days. *dakshy chants repeatedly*

future plannings - once again

things are finally taking shape right now. mom has decided to apply for the south-Australian-matriculation (SAM) course in either taylor's or sunway. so, that would mean that i'll be spending the next one year (starting from january) doing that. gonna be quite fun i think.

bloody period - literally

on thursday, while talking to siew, pei yi, mei kay and wong, we suddenly started talking about stress and period.

"do you know that both our period is delayed cos we're so stressed up by these exams?" siew asked, referring to herself and pei yi.

"oh really?" i ask.

"yea. but brenda got her period on time." siew says.

"yeap." wong says, carrying up her hand.

"during the trials, my period was bloody hell 3 weeks late wei. i nearly thought i was pregnant." i said, exaggerating just a little.

"how nice if we were all just stressed up 24-7 and then we wont have period at all??" wong fantasised.

we just laughed.

and now, i've got my bloody period. damn it! my stomach is damn painful wei. how on earth am i gonna succeed in studying nonsense-biology with this excruciating pain?! it's not exactly "excruciating" la.. but it's just a pain in the butt - literally.

mouth ulcers and wong

on Thursday, when chemistry 2 - chemistry 3 break was going on, siew, wong, mei kay, pei yi and i were lepaking in the canteen, studying ways to make ester and effects upon electrolysis with different electrodes, when the topic about mouth ulcers came up - courtesy of pei yi, since she had mouth ulcer. we were just talking about how disgusting and painful ulcers can get, especially when you tersalah-ly bite them. ouch! it hurts like hell wei. anyhow, while talking about it, wong came up with the ultimate disgusting statement.

"can you imagine how would it be if your ulcers begin to undergo mitosis and multiply constantly? and then, it's like your whole mouth has ulcers. AND THEN, you bite them all together! the juice comes out with all the blood in it. can you imagine uh?"

the best part was that, she just HAD TO expose her wild imagination just as i was having my lunch. haiyo. i completely lost my appetite. ish ish. wong wong.

sleep over

the sleep over in my house that was initially scheduled to be on the 26th, has been intentionally post-poned to the week after. mostly because mom and sis wants to get some things done at home with my help before i can officially start party-ing with ma homies. and also rite, i feel if it was on the week after, i can all my things at home cleaned, especially my room before we can jam-in. so, i guess its for the better lor. i can also stock up snack food supply during that week to make the night an official blast.

i think this plan is chun-ted bukan main chun-ted.

waxing!

on the 27th, which is a tuesday and my sista's off day, i'm gonna be going in for waxing! finally wei! it's high time i go for a bloody waxing and start wearing skirts without feeling so super duper conscious. i can start wearing short dresses too! ooo ooo ooo! i saw this really really nice dress in the BlackBook in bangsar! it's so bloody nice wei! and my sis has agreed to get it for me! weeeeeee!

just 2 more days. just 2 more days. *dakshy chants once again*

click!

~ waiting for confirmations ~

spm - going on

the night before
the night before spm, which happen to be day-3 of deeps, i was in my uncle's place for lunch cum tea gathering. normally right, the first 2 days of deeps would be in ma place and the 3rd ay would be in my uncle's place which is in one of the damansaras. so, leaving home at 12something, we reach there at 1 something. the whole gathering goes fine and we have a whole lotta fun and take a whole lotta pics. that was bloody fun! the camera was clicking nonstop.

but, a few hours later, when it was time for us to leave at around 7 something, my entire family started wishing me all the best for my spm and all. they started hugging me and "motivating" me. fuck wei. that was when i really started feeling that spm was the very next day, in less than 5 hours to be exact. wah. before i could get into the car, my heart started racing and i started having chills already. by the time i could get into the car and be off back home, my heart was beating faster than a bunny's. sitting in the car, i was super duper silent. i barely spoke. my family (mom, dad, sista, grandma) who were in the car with me, were constantly checking on me. i was also loaded with motivating speeches from grandma, mom and sista. dad was least bothered to give a talk as he knows quite well that no matter what, dakshy will not be motivated and will remain silent.
this proves that i got my intelligence from my dad.

reaching home, i head straight for the stairs to go up to my room. my sista then requests me to stay downstairs and watch a movie with her as she didnt want me to be all alone. i oblige and place a pillow on her lap and lie down. i started feeling a little better and less tensed until my mom came over and said,
"dakshy.. are you okay?"

wah. that was when i completely broke down. i was bloody freaked out because of the exams and started crying on my mom's shoulder. then, my grandma came over to me and gave a piece of her mind to me. she was really irritated that no matter how much she tried consoling me just now, i'm now sitting down and crying. i got mega screwing. just what i needed.

minutes later, after the tears had dried up and my eyes were less bad-shape, yoga walked into my house for dinner with dinner as a "surprise". thank the lord that i wasnt still crying. oh lord. what would have happened to my maruah diri?? anyways, he was wearing this really really nice green top that looked really nice on him.

despite being in such a horrible condition, i could still notice fine details. ish ish. dakshy dakshy..

the morning of day-1
reaching the temple at 6.15am, i suddenly remembered that i forgot to bring my IC!!! dad straight away voluntereed to get back home and get the ic for me. then, mom, sista and me, finished our prayers by about 7 and walked down the hill of the temple to get a cab to get to school, as planned since dad had taken the car. walking down the hill, i get a message from yoga saying that he was already in the temple and asking me if i had left already.

"yoga!! oh my god! send me to school!" i said, explaining the whole situation in super speed. he then obliges and send me to school. oh my god. he was god-sent wei. i was getting bloody late to school some more.

my saviour!!

exams review
bm - painful. FUCKING painful.
history - essay was dumbshit.
english - chunted. literature was GREAT.
maths - fantastico!

birthdays
today happens to be yoga and awesome wong's birthday. so, best wishes to them!

click!

~ birthday message ~

deeps arrives!

the night before...
the night before deeps, when you're supposed to be helping your family with the spring cleaning and the decorations and stuff, dakshy and her sista went out for a pre-deeps party. and what actually happened in that pre-deeps party?? ALCOHOL BABY!
damn it la. i dont want it to sound that way, but what the heck.
so anyways, we had alcohol. a whole lot of em. wah. actually, i dont like drinking outside of my house, cos i just feel really awkward. also, i feel that girls should not drink in public and should not look like alcoholics. i know i sound as though i'm from the 15th century, but i guess that's how i am. anyhow, my sista's friends got so excited after seeing me as they havent seen me in a really long time. and also, my spm was coming and they wanted me to "relax". so, i was given a glass with alcohol in it. to be precise, chivas regal.

i thought it was only gonna be one glass and we can go back after that one glass as i wanted to leave really really soon because the dumb mosquitoes were getting the worst out of me. but noooooooo. they continue topping up my glass everytime i was done and never allowed me to finish my drink in full. wah! at the end of the day, i bloody hell had 7 glasses of chivas - on the rocks! haiyo. my head started spinning already la. they made me bottoms-up every glass some more. at that point, i would have been able to sing twinkle-twinkle already as there were so many stars above my head la. ish ish. so much for the 15th-century-dakshy! fuck!

at around 10.30, i was so glad that we were gonna leave and that i can STOP bottoms-up-ing. i reach home and my cousin mira is at my hall all prepared for the kolam she was gonna do.
dakshy. come and help me finish this. i 'm kinda tired and i wanna finsh this fast.
huh? ummm...
what? it's a simple one la. come.
miraka... ummm... gimme a few minutes. i'll be right down.

i dashed up to my room. fucketty fuck! kolam?! i can barely see the bloody ground! how the hell am i gonna see the rice grains on the ground?! not knowing what to do and how to handle the situation, i head straight to the bathroom and switch on the shower and hit super cold water on my head. got wet for several minutes and felt waaaaaaaaaay better. after that, at around 11 something, i went downstairs and finished the kolam happeningly. mission accomplished!

deeps morning
barely slept all night as bloody ass-pee-am was just stuck in my head and spoilt EVERYTHING. at 6 something, mom comes over to my room and literally bangs my door.
dakshy!! wake up wake up wake up! it's deepavalli!
huh?? i mutter as i just fell asleep less than 20 minutes ago.
wake uppppp!
ooookaaaayyyyy...

i wake up and go downstairs. grandma comes over to me with the oil and some herbal stuff in hand. makes me sit down and applies the paste on my hair. she also successfully makes me sit down with that thing on my head for one hour so that it seeps well into my head. as soon as she left my sight, i dashed up to my room and washed my hair 3 times with the shampoo to remove the effect caused by the paste.
2 hours later.....

SUCCESS!! the paste's effect was gone. hair not oily. perfecto!

minutes later, deepavalli morning prayers took place. that was when i played my veena to my sista's singing and got blessings from my parents. me getting blessings from my parents only occurs once a year. that is only deeps day as we get $$$ when we fall on their feet. so, i guess the pain felt when i had to kneel down when i touched their feet wasnt that bad. : )

friends visit
ma clicks came over to ma place on deeps!! waaaaaaah. it was so bloody fun!
siew - walked in with the phone on her ear, talking to her mom about what time she's gotta get back and how she's getting back. (it was all about getting back) i wouldn't blame her though. i was bloody surprised that she could make it in the first place!
awesome - in a skirt as usual. haha. and i humongous marker-written "tattoo" on her arm saying 'i love the click five'. typical.
catherine - runs staright to me and hugs me. waaaah. so glad she could make it.
becca - wore a green top and looked really nice in it (it was green - of ocurse la nice!)
mei kay - in her shorts-looking skirt. so so so excited as it could be seen all over her face. (cho chweet la she)
koo - wearing a punjabi suit in conjunction of deeps and looked really nice. (green again!)

as soon as they came, i toured them around ma place and showed them the entire house. after that, we hung out for a while, while munching down some happening cookies that dakshy made. *smiles* after that, lunch was served on a banana leaf by mom and grandma. so very the fun. ma clicks were so excited, especially mei kay. haha. that one no need to say la. she was so cute. anyhow, while they were eating, i was having the time of my life watching some of them fiddling with the rice to make it enter their mouth.
coughbrendacough
haha. soon after that, mom became the survivor and gave her a fork and spoon. anyhow, they enjoyed lunch ultimately. and that was great.

soon after that, we headed over to my room and lepaked there till they left, while munching down some cookies.

that night
at around 9 something, my relatives started coming in. angpaus count started increasing rapidly. *winks* after all the chatting and the gossipping and the in between fireworks presentation by yoga, deeps gathering ended at around 12 someting.

happy happy happy

click!

~ i love you even more ~

jam tarts

ingredients
one packet jam tart mix
2 egg yolks
250g butter
pineapple jam

method
cream butter.
add in yolks and beat till fluffy.
mix in jam tart mix.

i practically memorised the recipe to this cookie yesterday. no joke wei. my sista and i started baking at 10am and stopped at 12am. and YET, we're not done with the orders for jam tarts. we successfully made 4 bottles of jam tarts but we have another 5 orders to go! fuck wei.

i was so physically and mentally exhausted yesterday that towards the end, after baking the last batch, i told my sista that i really cant continue and told her to get the maid to help her clean up. it's usually me who cleans up after the baking as my sista will be in charge of preparing them. but yesterday, my body was just fully used up (wrong choice of words - i know). i simply couldnt move. neither could my brains function anymore. my back was so fucking painful that i still cant sit well. eeeerrrr!

and you know what's the best part? i am actually supposed to be studying but i'm baking jam tarts and choc chip cookies instead. haiyo. something tells me that i'm not doing the right thing at this point. to reimburse all the waste of time yesterday, though today is saturday and it's supposed to be my lepak-ing day in my mom's shop, i've decided to stay at home and study. that's fantastic right?

actually, that depends on whether i really study or not. hehe.

man u VS arsenal
ooooohhhhh damn! tonight is like the MOST anticipated game of the season. i'm so bloody freaked out la wei. haiyo. and the game is at 8pm tonight. i just really really hope that man u wins. if they dont... oh lord. my life would be officially over. my friends, who happen to be arsenal's greatest fans will torture the life outta me. and that's for sure.
rooney - keep scoring darlin! you can do it!
ronaldo - pleeeaaassseeee. for goodness sake, DONT DIVE!
anderson - whoa! you're fantastic! keep playing this way!
nani - run with the wind hun!
tevez - score whenever you get a chance and bring man u to the top of the chart!

countdown to spm
my sista has started making a countdown for spm for me. how fantastic is that? it's like every time she's bored or something, she reminds me that there are only a few days left to my spm and she also does a countdown to the number of days left for my spm to be over. oooooowwwww. how sweet...
DAMN YOU!

medical career
for the paffilion-th time yesterday, my sista and i had a talk about my medical career. oh lord. i really cant take this la wei. why am i being tortured this way? and i just realised that the only reason my sista wants me to become a doc is so that one day, she could say..
"dakshy, my sista, is a cardiologist!"

do you even think that's gonna motivate me in any way to become a doc uh? it's actually making me get even more agitated as the only reason you want me to study so bloody hard is so that you could boast that your sista is a doc. why cant you even think of my happiness at any point? do you know how fucking hard it is to study medicine? it's not something i can complete and pass the cert over to you and move on you know. it's a life-time of studying! how the hell am i gonna do it if i dont like it?! does anybody ever think about this?

why do i feel that everybody around me are being so bloody self-centered? think about me for a second and think of the things i am gonna go through once i embark on my medical career. THINK.
at this point, i feel so low.

click!

~ will always love you ~

baking spree

as deeps gets closer, the oven in my house is required to work over time. that would be because of the piling orders for our deliciously delicious cookies and cakes.
*smiles*
what do you expect la? dakshy is baking. of course la the orders will pile up. they might even mountain. haha. anyways, in the spirit of deeps, cookies, cakes and sweet stuff are supposed to bring the family closer. as preparing them will require helping each other and working together.

deeps - last year
last year, we were baking in massive quantity. no joke wei. we were baking for like closed to 200 orders and stuff. so many many types of cookies and for so many many people. so yea. we were practically baking and baking and baking nonstop before we could clear all our orders. the reason as to why we actually took in that many orders in the first place was because sista, miraka, shamita and dakshy were really really free. sista didnt have much work in mom's shop and so did miraka. whereas shamita and i had already finished our exams and we didnt exactly have much to do in school.

and the results or baking that much was super high profits. that was fantastic wei. but, the results of baking that much was also...
~ sick of the smell of cookies
~ ability to memorise recipe for each cookie off-hand
~ disability to look at cookies
~ disability to stand the taste of cookies
~ dreams all about cookies
and so much more..

nevertheless, it was a fun experience as we were all really really having a whole lotta fun being together and yakking and gossipping all through out. that was really nice. i dont think i'll be able to forget last year's deeps anytime soon.

deeps - this year
no orders for deeps. that would be because dakshy's having her spm. i cant help out with the baking of the cookies as i should be studying for my upcoming spm. and miraka's got a new job which requires a whole lot of her time. and my sista's kinda busy in mom's shop.
that was the initial decision.

right till deeps was around the corner and a whole lotta people started asking why we arent baking this year. all those people started messing with my sista's head. and made her change her decision. now, she's decided to take in orders. that doesnt matter. what matters is that, who's gonna help her bake??

dakshy of course! ish! how the hell am i gonna study la like this?

initially, she said that shamita can help her out with the baking and i dont have to help her at all. but then, after baking couple of batches and realising that shamita isnt of that much help, she resolved to me once again. so, now, i'm measuring flour and sugar rather than measuring the growth of plants due to hormones.

it's not that i'm complaining that i dont have time to study and all. it's just that i feel guilty that i'm not studying you know. it's just that fucking annoying feeling that irritates the life out of you because you're doing something other than studying when your exams are just 10 days away.

fuck! 10 days?!

*dakshy breathes in and out several times to calm down*

headaches
i've been having constant painful headaches nowadays and it's getting the worst out of me la wei. i really really cant stand it you know. and my mood is so badly affected because of it. i can barely concentrate on anything. i think i've got some mega brain disease. maybe brain tumor or some acute nerve problem.
*TOUCH WOOD!*

tuition comes to an end
yesterday was my second last add maths tuition with my add maths teacher. towards the end of class, he was giving me some pep talk. haha.

"dakshini. exams are getting really really close. i know you'll be really stressed up right now and you'll be having all the pressure in the world over your shoulders. your head will feel as though it's carrying one tonne of weight. dont worry. that's something everybody goes through. just remember that you have all the potential to score A1 for your add maths paper. i know you can. just relax and sit for the paper in a relaxed state. you'll definitely be able to score well. and make sure you eat a lot of cucumber and a lot of vegetables. they'll help with your memory and also make sure you're healthy and dont fall sick before your exams. and dont get wet in the rain. especially drizzles. take care of yourself. we'll do some questions next week and you'll be all set for your A1."

waaaaaaaaaaaaah. so motivating wei.

click!

~ imagination power ~