Wow, it has been AGES since I even visited my blog!
Just realised that it is open to public too - crap!
Anyways, I've left Monsoon Cup - seeing that's my last post.
Studying now, doing my degree in Pharmacy!
Life is.... well, not so good. It's been quite challenging recently. With random people entering and leaving my social life. That should be a good thing, but for me (Ms.Anti Social), that's not good one bit. Life should be consistent - I shouldn't be involving new people. It should be the same. People should NOT know much about me and I should remain a mystery to people :)
BUT, I just realised that there are downs to being Anti-Social, despite having that amazing sense of superiority because nobody knows shit about you :) Yup, there is a problem with that.
Your feelings become unreadable to people. That, my dear people, is NOT GOOD.
No matter how happy you are, or how sad you are, nobody will actually know how you feel until you tell them. Trust me, having to tell someone all the time that you're happy, sad, excited, scared - NOT GOOD!
You start feeling like the ones around you are estupido! Because they simply don't know how you feel! Worse still, they'll ask you over and over again, "Are you happy? You were upset with what I did yesterday?? Really??"
Aaaaarrgghh!! Isn't my moves saying all that?!
Aaaaarrgghh!! Isn't my moves saying all that?!
Answer: Nope. You don't show anything, how am I to know?
True.... I love being the invisible one, but the outcome - Dakshy is feeling-less. Sigh. Again, NOT GOOD.
The only reason why I haven't started hating the world for the way it is, is solely because I opened myself to a few people around me over the years. One obvious one would be Yoga. Yup, it took me quite some time, but now, all I'll have to do is pick up the phone and say "Hello.." and he'll know whether I'm ecstatic or depressed. :) How nice! I don't have to say a word more. Just pour out my heart. And one look at my face will tell him whether or not he's gotten me the right ice-cream for the mood I'm in. Wonderful, innit?
After him, would be Koo, who I'm soooooo glad to have with me in uni. I tell you, it was just God's plan... To have someone I'm close to on campus - so that I don't die of depression and loneliness. God's plan - A grade!
Soooooo many things have taken place over the last few months of my life - especially since October 2010. Soooooo many things that can't be written here, for public viewing. :) They shall stay with me. However, I must say that I have learnt a lot. I can say I have somewhat grown in the last few months... To be someone who can actually accept consequences of my actions without blaming anyone. I feel.... grown.
Oh, and exam period is in. Exams are starting on the 11th of May. Oh lord, for how much I'm procrastinating, I'll be having 1hour of sleep per day to get through the syllabus before the day of the exam. Crap-ness!
Ciaos..
Can't promise when the next post will be, but... I *gotta feeling* it should be soon :)
~Dakshy~
Abhi na jaao chhodhkar, ke dhil abhi bhaara nahin
